Inner conflict

Lloss, regret, unrequited compassion and a flase sense of hope are all that i am experiencing. I fel like i'm disconnected from my body. Like I'm watching life as a video game. I feel as if i am beginning to lose control. More often than not, i feel my basic instinct threatening tooverpower my brain. I want to submit to my instinct sometimes, but still i know i cannot, for fear of hurting others. My conflict is my own. no one shall know of it.